im all dead on the inside

this is killing me... im about to cry, but i cant because my parents are in the same room as me.
but the good thing is that im about to go bed now and i will be able to cry in the shower..... O.o

this video just made me really sa. i mean i know that im supposed to be happy for these two amazing people that are in love, but i just cant help it.

and also the fact that they are these two extremely beautiful and sucessful people, star in the best movies..... but here i am siting at home, where no one beleives in me and obviously i know that i have a talent..... but fucking school work doesnt leave me with enough time to apply for an agency.. HENCE IM NOT IN A SINGLE MOVIE YET!!!!!!!!! AND IM GOING TO BE 15 IN JUNE!!!

BUT I PRAY THAT WELL BEFORE THE 15TH OF JUNE 2011 I WILL BE CAST/ AND ALREADY FILMING IN MY FIRST ROLE.

NOW I DONT GIVE A SHIT WHAT TYPE OF A ROLE IT IS. I CAN HAVE JUST 1 LINE OR 15 LINES OR THEY MIGHT JUST SHW MY FACE AS AN EXTRA!!!! BUT I SWEAR THAT I FUCKING WILL BE AN ACTRESS BEFORE MY 15TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!


OH.... here is the video that i was crying over....

battle of the bands.01/20/2011

there is a 'battle of the bands' competition at my school tomorrow. and i told my my mom about it, thinking that her and my dad might come. but she made me "invite" my sister, even though i DIDN'T and still DONT want her there. So i told her, and she said 'yes' and then 10 minutes later she tells me that she invited her fucking friend, WITHOUT EVEN ASKING ME!!!! Its my school, Im a student there, and Im not even sure how the BOBands is going to be like because its my first time to attend something like that :@ *im so mad* and then my mom had a pitty talk about my sister with me and then she started crying saying that she doesnt have a lot of friends - my sister(almost 20y.o.)-  and this and that... and YaDa YaDa Ya!!!!

Nerd....

I got an A1* for my biology essay.... im such a nerd :P

not that i mind :D

I feel so fucking smug

My dad came back from the parent-teacher evening. basically he had a 5minute conversation with everyone of my subject teachers, and they talked about ME and my improvements :D and turns out all 9 of my subject teachers said amazing stuff about me.. and no, im not being bias :P so my ego is altered :D

I was especially happy with the 'reviews' from my Drama teacher and my Biology teacher:D as well as my english teacher who noted that i read a lot :P... which I do, Im a nerd... not really, but in a way

So Im feeling very smug and proud of myself now :D

Fuck yeah, Bella xoxo

The Golden Globe Award

As u can see this is a picture of our lovely Robert Pattinson, Im guessing at this very moment during his rehearsal for the awards tonight. As we all know he will be one of the presenters tonight.

Unfortunately I wont be able to watch it cuz Ive got school tomorrow, and even if i didnt have school tomorrow I still wouldnt be able to watch, because I dont have Sky Movie Premier Channel :((( 

*Crying*.. not really

I dont have any followers :(((

Tom Felton

My new obsesssion...BUT only when he has his hair bleached. I dunno why but I like him  only with bleach blonde hair. and I personally think that he should dye it in real life :D he looks way too cute <3

HP

So yesterday I came across a Harry/Draco fanfic... and now Im obsessed. Not only am I obsessed with the couple, but also with the Harry Potter series as well. And let me tell u this: Im a Slytherin and Gryffindor fan, I cant seem to decide ;/

So yesterday..

Yesterday in Biology class - Im doing High Level Biology- we were dissecting an eye. A sheeps eye to be exact. And guess what... it wasnt even that grouse when I was touching it.

Also.. on thursday in chemistry class -also HLevel- they gave us back our test results and..... *drum roll* I got a B :D 70% 21/30 :D

Well I gotta go

Bye for now

Bella xxx

part 2...

Yeah, and also what I fucking hate is the fact that people -especially my family- ALWAYS pretend as though as if they support me, as though as if they beleive in me, and that they beleive in my dreams. When in reality they think that even if under some bizarre circumstances I ever do become an actress and star in some movies that after a couple of years Im going to fail... so they think that I have to go to university. Well I cannot wait until the day I will be standing on stage accepting my Oscars Award and then I will be the one laughing at them for not beleiving in me. And when they do realise their mistake and  come running to me saying how proud they are of me, and how they beleive in me, or some of them will be apologizing for not having faith in me I am going to tell them to FUUUCCCCKKKK OFFF!!!!

And all that matters is that I WILL be an actress, I WILL be sucessful and I WILL FUCK EVERYBODY OVER who stands in my way. Because I dont give a shit.

Lots of love
Bella xoxo

Oh fuck me....

Ugh... hate my parents *growl*  fucking absolutely hate them. they just suck. they think that they know me, and in reality they know only 1% of the real me. So they go off judging me, and pretending that they know me. They think i love them.
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Well, guess what.... NEWS FASH: I dont Love anyone. I dont love people. I dont even like people!!!! I have no feelings towards people.  And yet they expect me to show feelings and emotions towards them.
They -my parents- think that just because they r paying for my private school, and because they bought me a cell phone and a laptop, that they r the best parents in the world.
I mean come on.....My mom is just UGH i dont like her, just because she is nice now it doesnt mean that i have to forget of the fact that she practicly ruined my childhood and was a total bitch towards me for the past 11-12 years.

My dad is just a workaholic... who thinks that just because we have 10 things in common, that he knows me. He thinks that Im only trying to act cool and that Im pretending to be tough. Well I dont even have anyone to be cool for, or I dont even have friends to whom I ca show that Im tough.
This is just plain me... I dont pretend to be anything, or anyone that Im not. Its all 100% me, and yet no one gets it.

Okk Ill continue in another post

Bella xoxox

well this is how my desktop looks :D The Sturridge Brothers <3 They r my latest obsession O.o

BTW Tom has 2 new movies, "On The Road" based on the book by Jack Kerouac, and another movie called "Waiting for Forever" alongside Rachel Bilson from the O.C. :D 

hi..

well, ive been bailing on you guys :( and i havent been posting :|  school is going alright, not so bad :P nothing special....anywhoo I have to go and take a shower *StinkyBells*

will try to post tomorrow

love
Bella xoxo

sunday

well hello there
today sucks... first of all:
- i have to go back to school tomorrow
- i have a major chemistry exam tomorrow
- i have to write an essay for my english class, about To Kill a Mockingbird
- i fucked up my maths homework, so i had to re-do it

The only good ting is that, the FanFiction story that I'm reading was uploaded today.... but still the chapter ended with a major cliff-hanger ;(((

Also my mom made a meat pie, and she knows that i dont eat meat (its disgusting)... so i've only had a popt art :D

anywhoo i have to go now, i will try to upload later on about my fuck-boring life :P

Bella
xoxoxo

well this is me and my sister Dee :D She is the one with glasses, Im the one with the really wierd fringe :P We.. well me mostly like to goof around, hence the silly face 

Ugh...

So... today is saturday :D I woke up at 1p.m. and then I did my chemistry homework. And all in all it is quiet a boring day. And since I got a new laptop this week, a MacBook Pro :D But being the dummy I am, I have no idea how to use. So thats what brought me here to the Apple Store on Regent Street:D They are teaching Garage Band, which will be quit useful for me since I play the guitar.
My sister came with me <3

Well, I think I should stop writing now and start listening *sigh*

Love love
Bella xoxo

Today :D

Im in an Ok mood, kinda dont feel anything, no particular emotions *that happens a lot to me*. Oh yay its friday today, and Im kinda trying to do a bit of homework. Not to mention the chemistry test that Im gonna have on monday :L

Im listening to the Band of Skulls in this exact moment, while Im writing this post :D They're not that bad O.o

*sigh*
I've got so many things that I could write about... and I dont know what to write about, because I dont want to bore you.

Ok ok.... Today I got myself a mouthguard, so that I can play hockey at school during gym class. And I was supposed to boil it for 8seconds, but when I came home and tried to boil it.... lets just say I fucked up ^.^  And it was raining a lot today, my hair looked awful as usual.
Oh and yeah... I have my hair cut in a Joan Jett mullet :P If you dont know who she is... well simply said she is a legend! U might know her from The Runaways or The Blackhearts :D

And today I set  myself a not so important goal... which is to become ambidextrous. so I want to learn how to write with my left hand :D and once i do learn how lo write with it, i will most probably start writing with it 60% of the time

well, farewell
Bella xoxo

Start...

Uhh... lets see. My name is Gabriella, but u must think of me only as Bella. And never ever call me Gaby, because I personally think that its a very common nickname for all the Gabriellas out there. Im not going to tell you my age, but I'll give u a hint. Im in my teen year :D And Im doing my GCSEs... oh joy *note the sarcasm* I live in London, and quiet like it here, though I would much rather live in L.A. :) This is my first blog, even though I have got a Tumblr, and not to mention my favorite TWITTER <3

Here I will be posting a lot of wierd, random, stupid, and well just all kinds of posts. There will be days when I will feel extremely horrible, weather it will be because of my jealousy, or just because I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. And this blog will serve as a shrink :D 

Thats about it for now 

Bella xoxo